Lea Michele - Auld Lang Syne - New Year's Eve

3, 2, and 1.

finishing off my top ten, I am going to try to explain the rest of the list. #3. No organizational skills needed. this one is pretty self-explanatory. I don't know how to organize any thing really. I often times just mimic everyone else way of organizing. A few things might make it different, but over all, I just have to copy what every one else does, and then make it my own.

#2 Taking as much time as you need to do the little stuff. it's true that I take a lot more time then others to do things, but in the long run it helps because I set aside as much time as I need to get things done for myself. I sometimes get frustrated with myself about this, but in the end I know it's the best way to do things. Because of this I have taken more then ten years to get a Bachelors degree, however, in the long run, no one can discriminate that I didn't do it. Also, if it came down to it, I could also point out of the weaknesses I have, I could overcome them.

#1 calling people on living in there own world. A common misconception of being Autistic is that we live in our own worlds. I would like to clarify this. Every one in the entire world lives in there own world. Autistic people just have a harder time getting out of it, and making ourselves more relatable to every one else. keep in mind as well that because we live in our own worlds it does not mean that it a happy world, or that it is convenient in any way. For a long time we have been thought of as dumb, stupid, and retarded because we do not fit into the mold of what every one else has been able to accomplish. In an educational situation, many of us are star shaped blocks that people have tried to force into the shape of a triangle or square opening. I can guarantee I have felt dumb because of this comparison, and I am betting I am not the only one. The trouble with this is that there are certain parts of being in this group that others have tried to lump us into others. Like saying we fit into a group of dyslexic people or the ADD/ADHD spectrum, or the OCD scale. no one can fully define what being Autistic is. the only way I know how to explain it is just to say I think, act, learn and behave differently then others do. I know it exists because of certain outcomes that have happened in my life. This is a major reason why it took me so long to get a diagnosis.

Judy Garland - Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

# 4, People seem to care about you more then usual

In leu of the holiday spirit, this one seems to be more appropriate then most. for some reason I never quite understood why, people seemed to root for me more then usual, especially during the Holidays. I guess that's the ultimate underdog story of how someone is troubled by something that they overcome. Only in my case, I didn't really know what I was overcoming, except for myself, and my own tendencies for setting myself back. I didn't know the name until I was a full grown adult, and since then, I have been trying to not revert back to a few tendencies. My family also found it odd how people seemed to recognize me in one form or another, even when I didn't recognize them back. People also did the 12 days of Christmas on me for more then one year in a row, because they liked me. To all of you who have helped me out throughout the years I thank you Profusely, and I hope you have a Merry Christmas.

#5 best mashups in the world

This isn't one of the best examples, but it's cool to have this kind of imagination, and the right equipment to do it. other mashups, in my head, can get even better then this one too.

#6 Be your own Best friend

#6 and #7 are very similar in that they kind of deal with the same subject. Because autistic people are loners, we end up being our own best friend. It is a different coping mechanism then the last one stated, however they are similar. In a way, this one ensures that we can be more self reliant then we would normally be, but it's different because #7 is a way of coping with depression, that autistic people are prone to. #6 helps us realize that we are not the worst people in the world, when we screw up, and that every one else makes mistakes too. In a way it's a way of letting go of the things we can't control.

Dancing with myself glee

Inside jokes

#7 You can have inside Jokes with yourself

Most people who are autistic are considered to be loners. For me though, I have always had a certain amount of people who cared about me in one form or another. However one major way that I was able to carry on in life was that I would randomly start laughing at something that others would not get. For me it was definitely a copping mechanism. Sometimes I would hear something wrong and it would show when it sounded funny, however most times when I would bust out laughing for no reason I would remember something, an image, or an instance that would remind me of a funny moment in my life. I can't always control when I get these, just when I do, it's usually at a time that I am stressed out or depressed about something. One important thing to realize though, was that as I can get happy images, and depressing and frustrating images as well. Many people say that autistic people live in there own worlds, but keep in mind that it is not always a happy world.

# 8 you can say anything you want and not be held against it.

By saying that we can say anything we want, I don't mean that we can get away saying vicious things to other people, as a matter of fact, most kids who are Autistic probably get discriminated against, and we are the one's that people say vicious things about. My account of this was when I was a kid, and my mom recalled me crying, and saying,"my Bully's called me a retarded Robot." They called me this because of my odd speech pattern, and the fact that I was so slow at everything. Although I went through this, I was definitely not always on this side of things. As most people realize, people with high functioning Autism can be very blunt and rude at times, and the more humble one's are actually willing to admit it, and can apologize for it. Although people can, and do get feelings hurt because of this, the important thing to realize is that most people with Autism do not intend to do this, reason's why I think this happens is because of a few reasons. One is because we don't always have an outlet for our feelings, and we want to explain to others what we see. Two is because we have trouble organizing our thoughts, and we have to bounce it off others to make sense of it, and it often comes out the wrong way. Another reason is because it's the only way it makes sense to us, and because we see it that way. For the most part, I have tried to avoid being too blunt, by thinking about what I say first, but it doesn't always come out like I have, and those that I can't avoid I say I am sorry to those I offended. However another side of this is that people might dismiss all that we say, and they don't let us make the point that we intend to. To some extent, this prohibits us from becoming people that are important to society, and we are dismissed as people who don't know what we are talking about. For this, I ask people to consider what we say, and to be open minded about how others see things, for people who are Autistic, and for those who are not. Because we can take responsibility for ourselves and for what we say.

#9.

in honor of #9 on the list, I posted a video on You Tube called Freak Flag Fly. (I'm not sure if that is the actual name, but that is what everyone will remember.) looking back, I never recall being a perfectionist, Though I know people who are. fact is, I'm related to a few. The struggle with this is the fact that I know I am being judged on there level and that has gotten me into trouble. Considering that I shouldn't be, to some extent I realize that others have been burdened by this and I've had to learn to take responsibility for my self. It does get frustrating at times, but in the end, I know that I have been given more patience then most, and that has been a blessing.

Shrek the Musical----Freak Flag Fly

A Whole New World - Aladdin - Inglês (English)

Teach yourself to listen to music in your sleep

expanding on the Ten best parts of being Autistic, I am explaining what I meant with each reason, #10 listed above is more due to my odd hearing problem then anything else. It is not as simple as I am hard of hearing or that I have lost a percentage of it. mine is that I can't always distinguish up close sounds from far away sounds. Because of this I would often times put the radio on at night and synchronize my dreams to the songs that were playing.

Disadvantages of having this hearing problem is that it doesn't help with concentrating on Reading, or analyzing anything with significance, so often times, for me it is hard to find a good study place, and get things finished. Over time I learned to do two things at once and although it takes me longer to do it I can say that it is possible.

if any one else is as board as me by just reading Text, don't worry, I have a couple of Ideas for the next postings too.

to give a little perspective into my world, this is the extent to my organizational skills, I don't have much, and yes this is embarrassing to bring light to, but I think it needs to happen. Sorry to my mother in advance, she did her best to teach me how to organize, but it didn't happen fully. Above is the example of what clean looks like for a normal person. above that one is an example of what my definition of clean is. it's a good thing I have my own room, because otherwise I would drive my Roommates nuts.

Ten Best Parts of being Autistic

10. You can train yourself to listen to music in your sleep

9. You never have to worry about being Perfect, because you know you never will be

8. You can say anything you want and people can't hold it against you

7. You have inside jokes with yourself.

6. You are your own Best Friend

5. You can get the best image mash-up's in the entire world.

4. People seem to care about you more then usual

3. No Organizational skills necessary.

2. You can take as much time as you want on the little stuff.

1. You have the ultimate excuse on calling people out on living in there own world, and not be held against it.

10 worst dates a guy can take a girl on.

10. sitting next to a girl at a fireside you would normaly go to any way's and calling it a Date.(reserved for first Dates.)
9. Taking a girl to a bad movie (on a first date.)
8. taking her Pot Gutt hunting.(both figurativly and literaly)
7. taking her to the mall to get to know her better and trying to figure out what you'r going to do next.
6. setting up a TV in a girls apartment, camping out their for a week and eating all her food.
5. taking her to a Dance and ditching her.
4. comming to her apartment five min. before curfew and insisting on staying.
3. inviting you'r self over to sunday dinner, to her parents house.
2. going up to a girl on the street and saying "Get in the Car, Now."
1. Taking her to the local make-out place at night, and herassing people.

Disclamer: when doing these things, a girl may or maynot forgive you, depending on how much she likes you, and on how forgiving she is. however, their are no guarantee's on having redemption when first dates are being set. please try to put you'r best foot forward when it comes to these things.

you can rank these in the order that you wish, and if their are other bad dates that you can think of you are welcome to tell me.

my Hobby

I love photography, and how certain aspects of it can be so calming. yet the process can be exciting as well, the exciting aspect of it is learning how to take a successful image.

my theory is that if a picture is successful in Black and White, then it it will also be successful in color. this is a picture I took at SUU just outside of the Breathwaite gallery (I am not sure if that is the correct spelling) I currently have a Nikon D-3000 and I also used the IR filter in Black and White Presents on Adobe Photoshop. past that I mostly made sure the lighting looked correct.

My name is Martha Wilder, I am 30 years old, and looking for something to achieve in my life. I recently found out that I am Autistic, though I am high functioning, there are different spectrums of the disorder. though it has taken me a long time to get where I am, I am a Sr in College, I will be receiving my Bachelors in History from Southern Utah University in the spring/summer semesters. Some of my goals are to work in a Library or Museum, I would also like to do a house flip, like what they do on HGTV or there's a couple of shows on TNT as well, and my ultimate goal is to go to London some day. it would be awesome if I could go during the Olympics, but first I need to earn enough money to do that. I am most interested in History and Photography, and I love to work on the computer and/or do crafts.