Sometimes I feel exactly like the bird at the first part of the scene below. Not that I have seen any thing particular shocking, but I have found that no one really asks questions past the get to know you questions. You know, How are you? What's your name? What's your Major? No one ever gets to the point of where they actually care about another person. The only exception to the rule is when there are angles pointing to someone saying, "you need to care about this person," your family members, or when someone is in dire need of help. Also there are no guarantees to these reasons either. It is my belief that that is why we have most of the problems in society that we have. Why there are still so many Lawyers who are needed in order to get something done. why more people have become so untrustworthy and why no one takes time to understand the struggles that another one is going through. On the other hand there has been more reports of Autism coming to surface in past years then ever before. maybe people just started noticing it, or their has been a genetic mutation that has allowed it to come up more often. Either way I think it's God who is saying that we all need to care a little more about each other.

The Lion King - Coconut Song Scene (English)

Work

finding work has been a problem in my life. I have struggled to find one that I am good at, that is within walking distance, that the manager is actually sympathetic to how I process things. I have only found a hand full of people who have actually been sympathetic to how slow I am at learning and at how slow I can be at doing things in general. the five main jobs I have had in my life have been delivering news papers, working in fast food restaraunts, at one time, I was a Library Assistant, that I got let go from, and I was also a Sample person at Costco, as well as a custodian. A common trouble that people with high functioning Autism have is finding a job that is good for them, that is at the level of ability that truly reflects them. My Father had this problem. He was a Custodian basically his whole adult life. He was a smart man, not in the way that others imagine smart as being, but he was. He did struggle with his place in life, and not having many people who understood how he felt. A lot of the time he would take his frustration out on us, and that would bring stress into our own life, and some times, make us feel less useful.

One other thing my father struggled with however was admitting his faults. for the life of him, he would not admit that he had social problems, which I have been told that I am better at. because of this, I have made moves to ensure that I do not have that problem put on others. I actually got diagnosed with a PDD-NOS, and I went to Vocational Rehabilitation that is helping me out with school, and other things. through this I was finally able to get disability services from school, for extra time on Tests, and I can have a note taker. for this I just use my Lab top, but I could have someone else take notes for me if I so desired.

some have wondered if it is cheating or not, but the thing with it is it's more about getting an individual the best chance of doing well in school, and in life. If someone judges the smarts of a fish being able to ride a bicycle, is that a fair assessment? The same goes with education. the services are not there to do the work for a student, they are there to help them overcome their weaknesses. As far as getting help with employment, it is illegal to discriminate against a person if they have a disability, physical or mental. This law is not to make people do things that they otherwise can not do, but it is there for people who would otherwise be discriminated for a job we can do. When we are in a time that there is no guarantee's in getting a job in this economy, there is some comfort in knowing that there is some safety in keeping one once we get a job. Note that this doesn't solve all the problems but it does help.

New years resolutions

some may consider New Years Resolutions a wast of time. They think that if we don't keep it the first week after New Years that we are doomed. To this extent, I think people don't get the point to New Years. The point of it is not to stay up too late one night a year in hopes that we will be different people when we wake up the next morning. The point is to celebrate life and to move forward while looking back at the lesions we learned from the year before. We can make goals any time we want and achieve them.

I try to make my resolutions on a short list. Some of mine this year include:

1. Be more Healthy. (not necessarily a weight loss goal, but it isn't limited to it.)

2. finally getting my licence (this one I have had for a while)

3. Be more Social. (especially with men)

4. Write a book

5. break the 3.6 GPA mark.

all of these are a stretch for me, but they are not impossible key things to remember when setting goals. I hope this is informational, thank you.