Monday, February 27, 2012

skyscraper.

I found this version of Skyscraper on You Tube. Sometimes when I am down I find this a good endurance song to listen to and get the spirits up. I also like this version better because in the original version I could hear the singer ruining her voice.

Skyscraper - Demi Lovato (Boyce Avenue feat. Megan Nicole acoustic cover...

Sunday, February 19, 2012

I haven't been doing much lately. Just school, homework and serving in my church calling. I also started writing a book about my experiences and how dealing with life can be a lot more difficult then other's might expect. No one person can guess how someone with Autism feels. At times we can be moody, self absorbed, having a wide range of emotions in even a 20 min. period. Some describe it as being underwater for large amounts of time, and not being able to come to the surface. To me it just feels like no one really understands me, and 99.99999% of people don't even care. It is a common factor that people with Autism often times go through clinical depression. I'm not sure if that is because we have Autism, or because it just shows up as a symptom because of another symptom. Either way I have learned that caring about something helps cope with it. However because Autism can affect people both Physically and Mentally, finding something for them to hold on to is a very limited field of what they can do. for me, I can make crafts, sew, read, and write. it can be frustrating even to do those sometimes, but at least there can be an outlet. I have been able to do most everything to a certain extent to get out of the feelings that I am often prone too. however, not all the time have I been able to get out of it, and their are others who have not had the same things to go on as me.

Friday, February 3, 2012

perception



What most people don't realize about pictures is that most of it isn't made from the positive space, it's mostly made from the negitive space. in some way's I feel like it's the same way with having Autism. Some people say that those with Autism are special because they have that. Actually most of what I had to go through did little to no fact that I had Autism, I just knew I had to do it as a mater of fact, most of my traits that made me who I am were developed in spite of having Autism.